Searching for my beautiful reward
Just had a dream that I literally left civilization and rounded up a bunch of girls to start our own colony of only women.
You are James T. Kirk, boldly going where no one has gone before!
Now that I have internet, let me tell you that this is the best day of the last week of my life.
I have been without TV or internet or basically any contact with the outside since last Sunday and now I’m sitting pretty in Starbucks in a fucking couch chair, just finished my salted caramel hot chocolate (gratis thanks to my brother), with my macbook plugged in and charging, my iphone charging, just scrolling through 5 days worth of missed dash.
You don’t understand how happy I am. I’m so happy that I’m literally excited. I’m smiling so hard and so excited. EXCITED. I’M GOING TO USE ALL THE INTERNET.
Sent out a couple important emails, downloaded school work for later, downloaded some fanmixes, got my queue in order, watched “Little Things”, listened to the Take Me Home album sampler, had a nice catch up with Anna…
Like SHIT, my life is good. I’m enjoying myself so much right now that I think the memory of today will carry my good spirits into the next few days.
I feel like everything’s been going right, but I’m more conscious of my emptiness than I ever was. I’m not sad; I’m just need a void to be filled and I don’t know how to correct it.
my life is a constant cycle of waiting until the weekend and then not doing anything when it comes